this song is probably the most important song i have written, i wrote this song the day after i found out one of my very good friends had committed suicide. i was struggling with coming to terms with it all and there were so many things i wish that i could of told him. the last time i saw him i wished that i could have done things differently. If there is anything i want to convey with this song is that i hope everyone makes an effort to learn the early signs of depression and checks on their friends if they are showing signs. I should have known because I suffer from depression myself but sometimes its easy to overlook.
lyrics
I wish that this was a dream
and soon i'de wake up in my bed
but i know you're really gone
and its not just in my head
but why would you do this to me
you left me wondering
is their something i could of done
i wish there was something
anything
Im sorry you were alone
i wish i could visit more
but its hard to do now that you're gone
and my heart will forever be sore
you said that no one would miss you
well i wish you could see how wonderful you are
i remember the first time i kissed you
and held you in my arms
but why would you do this to me
you left me wondering
is there something i could of done
i should of done something
anything
and its fucked up that now all thats left of you
is some pictures and a few songs
well its hard to talk to a photograph
just to be reminded that you're
really gone
well i wish that you could see
all that you had
and i wish you never did this to me
i wish you were never sad
but now its too late
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